Found My Future Jimmy Neutron...

We had known each other since 2011... That time I don't have any feelings towards him. As I know, he was so adorable, friendly and polite. I'm happy to befriended with him. I hope you'll stay adorable 'cause you were look PERFECT in my eyes...

Your pics was cute, calm and cool. Swaggy boy. I don't know... When I view your pics, my heart 'dug dag dug dag'. Dear God, why could be happened? *blushing*

Truth be told, I wasn't sure that he noticed my feelings too ;cause I don't say anything weird to him. Some of...love feelings? I saw he taken a pic with girls. I was getting jealous. But why...? I keep wondering that time. *why im jelly? did i like or love him?*

Too shy to say i'm in love. Maybe i'm just like him. But his smile, his face, his hair just like my favourite singer, justin bieber... ahhh.. melting! Yeah... I've crush on him. Really hope that he like me too but could be happened one day?

Imagine.. I was staring at him and keep thinking that he would be mine one day??

I wish we were sitting infront of the twilight, talking 'bout ourselves, laughing each other.. You're definition of calmeness. No lie. I keep shy to have a chat with you now but keep stalking you and support you behind your back. Please stay adorable and always smile. Your smile makes me happy. Don't listen to those people who don't like you. For me, you're awesome. I wish I could be your listener but you were just like a bit of justin bieber.. didn't really sharing what bothering you.

You're my future Jimmy Neutron. I will be a good Cindy Vortex. Lol.

Someday You'll Need Me...

It's been a years now I didn't talk with her. Feels really sad but I have to accept it. I know she really hates me. But I don't really know why... She doesn't give me a logic reason. She even saying goodbye. At least she were saying goodbye to me. But nooo...

I'm crying over her. But seems she don't realize that. Yeah, I know now I can let her go but sometimes feels depressed whenever I'm thinking 'bout her. Truth be told, our friendship is no longer anymore.

Even we're not a buddiez anymore, I'm still love her as my sister. I don't know why.. She doesn't related to me but.. Argghh.. Really don't know..

She was betrayed our friendship. Just for small mistakes, she hates me.. Why? So far, I'm just seeing her from afar.. She don't noticed it 'cause she don't care 'bout me right now. Last year, she blocked me on Facebook. That time I was really shocked! Tear drops falling :'( Why? That's the sign that she really wants to me lost from her mind. And this year, I know she got a Twitter but I don't follow her -,- Feels sick 'bout her attitude. She's brilliant but she betrayed the friendship. I miss all of our friendship. I miss her smile, I miss her voice, I miss her laughter, I miss our chatting on Facebook and SMS. Oh, I got know she also deleted my phone number. Herrmm...

What can I do now? But feels weird, I've always dreamed 'bout her. Mostly, 'bout I getting okay with her. i thought it was real but only just a dream, yeah.. Just a dream *dissapointed*

But I believing ALLAH S.W.T. He helped me a lot. I know someday he will fulfill my wish. He will not let me crying more :') And she will need me. One day. I believe it. No doubt. You will realized your mistakes. I don't hate you. Really not. Still love you but it's up to you to make a decision. For what you've done to me, I accepted it but just thinks rasionally, would you be really sad if your beloved friend betrayed you? What can I say, please realize your mistakes. Please.. Begging you.. Don't think I hate you. Nooo... Forever nooo.. I love you.. Some people might call me idiot 'cause I still love the friendship that is broken now. But this is me.. I really love and cared 'bout friendship. No lie. And this is a poem for you..

I remember the time not long ago
When we laughed and shared it all
We were the very best of friends
Or at least that’s what I thought.
I often wonder why friendships end
What happens to sever that tie
How can someone once so close
Just wave you off with a good bye
I must have been lacking
I must have been wrong
I wasn’t the friend to you
That you were to me all along.
I thought I was loyal
I know I was true
But something went wrong
Now there’s nothing to do
A friendship lost
Is a very sad thing
The angels weep instead of sing.

That's all.. Goodbye..